I thought it was high time for some Ultimate Chats and it's something I want to do more often this year, keep things a bit different rather than the blog just be about beauty.
As you can see, I'm back blogging again and it's about time. Over the six years and 1,750+ blog posts I've written, I've had a few bouts of blogger's block but have always been able to come out of it. Last year though, that was something else. On a personal level and being a blogger level, it was a pile of crap. You know me, I never get into the personal stuff on here, but I'll just say that 2016 kicked my ass, and the asses of my family and some of my friends like nowt else. I found it nearly impossible to focus on anything else other than what was going on behind the scenes and for the first time since I started blogging, I wondered whether I wanted to continue with it.
I was in a cycle of wanting to blog about so many things, feeling completely overwhelmed with everything I wanted to do and needed to do and felt completely crap at life, and I wasn't able to blog at all. I didn't have it in me. I felt like I was a blogger who wasn't blogging. I was embarrassed and completely mortified at being in any kind of blog awards so didn't push for people to vote. I turned down speaking engagements that had anything to do with blogging because I felt like a fake. I stopped going to so many events because I knew it would add to the self imposed pressure I'd already piled on myself in terms of not writing about the new products. It was pretty bleak, but I have to say that Snapchat kept me going.
When I first started the blog back in 2010, it was a pure distraction from everything that was going on in my life at the time. This time, it was part of what was going on and that's another blog post altogether. Snapchat distracted me from it, from everything really. I was able to show you new product launches, the same way I'd do if I was blogging, I got to take part in some pretty cool campaigns on my own and with my family (all disclosed as #ad! And that's another blog post too!), and I made more friends thanks to it as well.
I got some great advice last year and it was to remember why I started. I started blogging because I love makeup and beauty a ridiculous amount. I love trying new things and seeing if they're any use. I want to help you find some absolute gems in the beauty world and letting you know what's new in the shops. Having a full time job and a real life outside of blogging is hard, especially when you're bursting at the guts with new ideas but can't get them all done. I've never hidden the fact that I'd love to do this full time and make a living from making content, be it here on the blog, on Youtube, on Snapchat or across social media. Right now, I won't be leaving my job anytime soon, but I'm enjoying blogging again and that's the main thing.
A lot has changed for me in the past six months. I don't do too well with change, but given time, I adapt and that's what I needed over the last little while. My love for all things makeup and beauty never went away, it just got a bit lost in the shitstorm that was last year for me. I'm hoping life has calmed down for a while now because I'm too old for all that crap!
This post could go on for ages, but I basically wanted to check in with y'all and say if you're still reading after all this waffle, thanks for sticking with me.
I'm back bitchezzzzzz!